Changed my blog to http://quistchan.blogspot.com/. Enjoy!

I am just posting up according to dates which I
wrote this in Microsoft Word. Dont mind yeah? I will try to update my blog as
soon as possible but since my finals is near, have to stop a moment k? Promise
you guys that I will update soon! Muaks!

25.02.2007

Assignments Galore?

Been a long time since I last blogged. Too many
assignments lately. Been online searching for Business journals and updating my
assignment. Kindda crappy coz I honestly don’t see the point in doing all this
crap. Why need to summarize articles leh? So nice ah? First of all need to find
creditable websites(cannot have .com or .net, instead must have .edu, .gov or
.org) and most educational journals want MONEY! Why everything also want to ask
for money? Cant be free is it? I mean honestly, journals are there to help us,
not to rip us out of our cash. Duh. I know lar you all have a lot of hard work
trying to compile but at least don’t charge us USD150 for membership. Hello? I
only want to use ONE of your articles and you have to charge me USD150 for
MEMBERSHIP?! Not only that, I have to wait 3-4 weeks after payment to be able
to use it.

Sir: Quist ah, where your assignment? You don’t
want your 10 marks already ah?

Me: Um…sir ah, journals cannot access lar…

Sir: Why cannot access? You dumb ah? Go find other
one lar.

Me: Sir ah, I pay USD150 already lar. They ask me
wait 3-4 weeks only can use meh wait 3-4 weeks lor. *hands receipt of payment
to Sir* Wasted if don’t wait lar Sir.

Sir: …

Yes. That is my school academic life. Pure
crap. But at the same time, I am loving it! Hehe!

Anyway, back to my life…

I just had a recent gathering with all my dear friends. Siew Lee, Ping Sze, See
May, Kar Yee, Zee Kin, Zee How and Andrew(actually Drew was just working at
Pizza Hut at that time but I will just put him in the list of people who
attend.) Nice to see you guys again! You don’t know how much I miss you guys.
*sob sob sob sob sob* its great to see that everyone has a plan for the future
except me. I feel like this idiotic girl. But the gathering was fun none the
less. Very funny coz we ended up discussing human rights there. Damn funny!
Politics came out, life updates came out, all sorts of bullshit came out but it
was a really really fun gathering! You guys should have seen the look of the other
people eating in Pizza Hut.

Girl: *whispers to guy companion opposite her* Who are those people? So noisy
lar.

Guy: Don’t know ah. Must be some pesky college
students who have nothing better to do with their lives kua.

Girl: Go ask them to shut up lar. I want to enjoy
my meal in peace you know.

Guy: You go lar. You think what. We 2 people they 7
you know. Some more got friend there, where I dare?

Girl: you so chicken one. Everything also I do meh.

Thus we became the object of interest during our gathering and make people
angry. Yeah. We are BAD BAD people. We live to make people suffer and disrupt
their peace. Those who were there and know who we are, I sincerely apologize
for the noise we made. Its just that all of us were really really excited to see
each other till cannot control already. Must just make a lot of noise coz we
know that our time spent with each other is limited and all of us have our own
social obligations to attend to later. Sorry.

I love you guys and I will find more time to spend with
all of you! Coz I love all of you! Muaks!

28.02.2007
What made my day…

Went to Gurney Plaza with bf(Mun Seong in case some of you dont know) today. So
nice! Haha! Alot of things to buy. You know lately, I have been addicted to
buying accessories and its all thanks to my bf! He is a shopping freak but a
great fashionista. Glad to have him! He says he wants to revamp me into a more
trendy chick. I truly appreciate that coz most of the time, I admit, I look
like this hag who would just grab anything from the closet and wear to school.
Ok…fine…most of you know I dont do that but I am starting to change into
caring about how I look. Been buying alot of accessories lately. Wonder if I
can wear them all. *looks at them and sighs*

Craving for the latest MNG blazer from the MillaLoveMNG collection! Its so nice
but it costs RM369! Oh my god! I will be bleeding and will starve to get that!
*stabbed by katana and left there to bleed for 2 months or so* Dear wanted to
get for me but I almost killed him coz both of us were literary tearing each
other’s hair out in MNG Island Plaza to see who will pay for it first.
Naturally, we didnt buy it but I am craving for it now. Here is a pic for it! I
looked good in it so I am seriously considering of getting it! How come Friendster image upload so blur?

Back to the title, you know what REALLY made my day? A baby girl! Yes! An
extremely cute baby girl in Gurney Plaza. Her dad was pushing her around in a
stroler and she had the cutest baby face ever! Her hair was cropped short, her
skin was fair as the snow and her features were lovely. She has naturally red
rosy cheeks which really brings out her complexion and shiny eyes which beams
under the light. When dear and I looked at her and smiled, she SMILED BACK! Oh
god! I almost died at that spot! Made me almost want to have a kid that looks
just like her at that very spot! We had a friendly chat with the dad.

Us: She’s so cute! She just smiled back at us! Aint she scared of strangers?
Dad: *beaming in pride* Yes, she’s a "smiler". The first time she
came into this world, she smiled at us too!
Us: Really? Wow! Thats so great! She’s so cute! How can she have those lovely
rosy cheeks?
Dad: She was thoroughly breast-fed by her mum. And she takes a cup of fruit
juice every morning. (Ok, if you guys are planning for a baby, remember to take
this tips if you want to have a baby as cute as her!)
Us: Wow! Didnt know breast feeding could bring out such a cutie! *looks at baby
as she smiles back again with a shy look on her face as she places her hands
beside her cheeks*
Dad: Why dont both of you get one too? Haha! When the time comes, you should
get one like her too!
Us: *blushing* Yeah, after we get married, Sir. Have a nice day!
Dear: So, when you want to get one for me? *grinning stupidly*
Me: In your dreams! *punches him*

Went to the arcades to pawn people in fighting games as usual, danced for a while then won a bet with my bf. Yes yes, its time to STRIP! *claps hand as dear takes off his pants to flash to the audience* *claps hand as dear takes off his shirt to flash off his bony structure* P/S: This happened some time ago but dont remember when. Shirt stripping happened though.

Now, THAT was something which really made my day!

3.03.2007
Back to celebrate dad’s bday…

Tomorrow(4.03.2007) is daddy’s bday. Yes, its Chap Goh Meh too. Nice right?
Full moon and all. NOT! I dont even have the time to enjoy that! Have to look
at my e-commerce notes despite the fact that I am sick and have a terrible
headache.

Drove home late evening after finishing my notes. Reached Kuantan XianRen(its a
Chinese restaurant located in my hometown, SP) with dear(he drove me home coz I
was feeling so horrible and terrible. Thanks dear!) Joined my family for
dinner. Nice!

Met Ken there. Hmmm…miss you, Ken. I am glad to see that you are doing well.
Hope you can get the scholarship you wanted. I dreamt of you about a week ago
that you are going to Australia to further your studies. I hope that comes
true! Its weird that sometimes, I dream about things and they happen. Though
its not 100% accurate, but most of the time it comes true. So I hope this one
comes true for you too.

You know what the ironic part is, both of us are practically
"neighbours" but we dont really hang out together. But we still come
from the same "gang". Haha! Its strange that I am getting all
nostalgic now but thinking back about your schooling times….I feel so sad.
Its been a LONG time since we last had a REAL gathering where EVERYONE of us
gather together to catch up with old times. Chi Yeung is back in Aussie and
doing well with his studies and girlfriend(keep up the good work, dear!), Ellie
and gf is in Perlis studying, Ken back here for the moment but working part
time so cant go, Siew Lee, Ping Sze and Kar Yee in KL, See May off back to
Aussie, Swee Fuan with her unknown whereabouts for now, Tsang Chiang in Russia,
Chong Tat and Drew waiting for results here, Wee Leum always hilang phone and hilangkan diri so dont know where he is now, Wee-dear@Wee Kiat is hopefully happy with his studies in a new environment there, me in Penang, wow….everyone sure
is going apart. I am glad we are all still good friends and I miss you guys so
much! Love you guys! Muaks!

I craive for the day when one of us gets married and we invite our whole gang
there. Wow! Talk about major gathering! I hope that day comes soon….I miss
you guys too much already. I dont know about all of you but everyday, I am
constantly thinking of all of you. If you read my blog, you might think of all of
us too but for how long? I hope all of us will remain friends forever, despite
our physical distance but distance aint a problem. I remain hopeful that the
day will come when all of us will get back together again as one. Even for a
brief moment….I have always prayed for that…

You know….I used to be an Ice Queen. Perhaps thats why I can just refer to Diva from the anime Blood+ like myself. Its a lonely world out there. Cruel…quiet…somehow…depressing…

Problems…everyone has problems. Its just how you deal with them. If you cant even save yourself from your own problems, dont bother helping others. What can you do? You aint any saviour. You may help make the world a better place to live in. Hell. I always wanted to do charity. To fight for women’s rights. To just make the world a better place. But if I myself am screwed up, whats the point? I can only heal others but sometimes its my own heart I cant heal.

My best friend…Lily…I love her to bits. I am sorry for all the pain I caused you in the past. Perhaps nobody has faith in me to change for the better. I just want to be someone better. Please help me. I dont have many whom I can depend on. But I dont want to continue hurting those whom I love and are close to me.

To everyone reading this, I am sorry for hurting all of you in the past. A new year calls for a new change. A new revelation. A new beginning. A new Me. I will change for the better. I want to…I need to…

Love…perhaps thats the only emotion that drives me. The love for my family, the love for my beloved friends, the love for all my loved ones…You drive me…Thats why I need to change for the better. Because of my love to all of you. Please help me and guide me step by step. Thats all I ask of you.

This is the song in my video. Ice Queen by Within Temptations. Its a really really great song! I think its what I am feeling…Perhaps that is what I am…the Ice Queen Diva…

When leaves have fallen
And skies turned into grey.
The night keeps on closing in on the day
A nightingale sings his song of farewell
You better hide for her freezing hell

On cold wings she’s coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you’ll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don’t you see it?
You better believe it.

When she embraces
Your heart turns to stone
She comes at night when you are all alone
And when she whispers
Your blood shall run cold
You better hide before she finds you

(2 x)

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven’t you seen?
Haven’t you seen?
The ruins of our world

She covers the earth with a breathtaking cloak
The sun awakes and melts it away
The world now opens its eyes and sees
The dawning of a new day

On cold wings she’s coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you’ll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don’t you see it?
You better believe it.

(2 x)

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven’t you seen?
Haven’t you seen?
The ruins of our world

Dear Friends,

I transfered my blog from my blogspot account here. I dont know why I couldnt log in properly there so I had to transfer and probably use this blog for now. Haha!

Anyway,
you know, I have just been thinking alot about my life now of these
days. There are just too many people I would like to see again. I miss
all of them. Most of all…they are my bested friends in the world.
This is a shout out to all of you my dearest friends!

My best
friend, Siew Lee @ Lily is working or rather training in Malaysian
Tatler. So proud of her! I am waiting for your article girl! If my free
copy of January’s Malaysian Tatler doesnt come, I am so going to rush
to every single bookstore in Penang and find one store which actually
sells that magazine. Not that many of those air-headed people I know in
Penang actually know how to READ. Wow! Reading to them is soooo passe’!
Duh! Haha! I guess most of them prefer to spend time playing DOTA in
cyber cafes. So my dear, you know I will do anything just that get hold
of your first article there. Keep up the good work and you are my queen
of my heart!

Ping Ping @ Ping Sze, miss you so much! Blur of
getting you your birthday gift! I am sorry but I admit that I do not
have time to shop recently due to assignments and exams but since its
Christmas and its MEGA SALES, wohoo! Hope to find something for you! Be
strong and dont worry. Most relationships dont last that long but if
you have faith, I am sure that you will find someone just for you!
Muaks!

Kar Yee, hope you will do well in your STPM examinations!
I miss you so much! I miss all those times we spent together and all
those times we fool and joke around like idiots on the streets! Haha!
Guessed those people must have take us for crazy people! I will always
pray for you my dear! Take care and I hope to see you soon just after
your examinations are over k? Will either pay you a visit or just wait
for you to come back if you are coming back. Hehe!

See May, oh
my dear Ah Mai~ Ah Mai~ *sings song* Miss you so much! Too bad I am
rarely online! Sob sob sob! Hope you are doing well in Australia. I
know you are so all I can do is pray for your safety and happiness
there dear! Keep up the good designing work and soon, you will be
designing my home! Realize your dreams dear!

Swee Fuan, dont
know why I never hear from you already. Miss you! Hope you are doing
well right now. And since your handphone always screw up or ended up
getting lost or stolen, I guess the only way I can reach out to you
right now is through the Internet where it is borderless. Wishing you
all the best k?

Chi Yeung, heard you have a girlfriend and that
you are extremely happy there! Hehe! Good for you, Liew! Dont go "9394"
ah?! (pronouce that in Cantonese if you may). I know you are already
back in Malaysia but unfortunately, I am still trying to make time to
see you guys k? I miss you alot! Hope to see your prankster and joker
self soon! Our group aint lively without you!

Ken-kun @ Kenneth
Ooi, romantic little boy! Haha! Hope you are happy there! Wonder when
you will be back. Hope to have another gathering with the rest and this
time, I drive better than I did before ok? Dont be scared. Wee-dear @
Wee Kiat also so scared. Wondering how he is doing now. I will only
pray for him no matter where he is.

Ellie, keep up your good
singing voice! You can do it! Go try again for Malaysian Idol and I am
sure all of us will support you! Be happy with your girl! She’s cute!
Haha! Small but freaking cute! Met you guys in Gurney the other day.
She’s shy though. But as long as you are happy, I am sure that all of
us will be happy for you! Remember to sing to her everyday k? She’s
lucky to have a guy like you!

Wee Leum, still a car fetish as
always. Always seeking us out to help him compare car model prices. If
you want more information, I will try to get car magazines for you.
Very detailed and when I saw them, I was amazed. And they are only
available elsewhere too! So consider yourself lucky!

Chong Tat,
one of the most important guys in my life. I know you want to tell me
something. I am still thinking about it till now. Wondering what kind
of news you want to tell me. Wondering if its bad or good news. Well, I
will just have to wait till you finish your exams k? Wait till you can
tell me face to face what you wanted to tell me all along. I will be
waiting for you k? Thanks for all your support you given me. I hope you
like the birthday gift I bought you. I am sorry coz I couldnt wish you
Happy Birthday coz I was bed-ridden on bed that day with a very very
high fever. I sincerely apologize coz I hurt you. I really hope you
will forgive me. I really value our friendship together. Hope that we
will continue to be friends forever and that you wont forget me after
you get yourself new friends. Waiting for the news…!

Andrew,
you are one of the most sarcastic yet fun guys I can hang out with.
Well, this guy reads ALOT! Some of the books he read are just plain
weird to me. All sadistic romance complete with weird sexual scenes.
Drew drew, I didnt know you were into these kind of things.
Bwohahahahahahahahahahaha! But he’s a good friend to talk to. I know
most people think that he may not be able to connect to you guys but if
you try hard enough, I am sure you guys can do it! He’s alot of fun you
know!

Tsang Chiang, I rarely hear from you now of these days. I
know that you may be busy with love. I know you really treasure your
relationship with Ju Li. But we are your precious friends too. All of
us supported each other all the way till where we are now. Please look
back and look at us once more in the eyes as your friends. Dont neglect
us because of love. Trust me, its not worth it.

All of you, I
really really miss you guys! I love you guys and I hope you are
alright. I am here because of all of you. I want to stay strong because
of all of you. I will never fall whenever I think of all of you.
Because all of you are my source of strength. My courage to go on. Even
though all of us are far apart and not with each other physically, yet
I treasure our friendship and I can feel you guys everytime around me,
mentally, emotionally and spiritually supporting me. I thank all of you
for that! I will pray for all of us to come back and gather once more
and many many times more in the future to strengthen our friendship
bond! I love you guys! Muaks!

Hey there people! Its been a really really long time since i last updated my blog here. Well, everybody’s already switching to an alternative blog but I dont find a need to do so yet coz I am too lazy and busy to blog anyway. Haha!

So…a 3 weeks holiday after a disastreous finals. Sigh. Ok…it aint THAT bad but still that idiotic Managerial Accounting lecturer of mine, Mr Alex Siew (You know what? i dont give a damn bout mentioning your name in blogs coz i dont think you would even be reading this anyway. and if you are, good for you!). Well, this guy here is like 30 years old and he’s desperate for a girlfriend. puh-lease. if you are so desperate, stop hitting on college girls you bitch! (excuse my foul language people) the very fact that you can actually start going out with your students on a one-on-one movie is totally unacceptable in the education department. i m sure they state it somewhere is section blah blah blah on how educators are not supposed to get "over attached" to their students. giving them your phone number in case of "emergencies" doesnt help too, sir! and yeah, did i mention that he is into favouritism? he favours and gives higher marks to those who "kisses his ass". its not that they are even good students anyway. like one of my friend mentioned, "f**k to pass an exam and get good grades." sux right? well, reality is like that. the world is cruel. he doesnt know a crap about accounting and why are you even considered an "accomplished accountant"? dont give me bullshit of "not practising accounting for a long time and going into the IT industry". you are teaching accounting so learn your stuff before you actually teach it. dont consult your laptop on every single thing you dont know and start reading text books like the rest of us do! Mr Alex Siew, we are so going to kick you out of KDU like IPG did to you before. And we aint sorry for doing so! Count your days, sir, coz it aint going to be plenty.

Anyway, lets just stray away from unimportant business and let me update you on my life. i finally got rid of my pesky ex room mate! *cheers, jubilates and start doing cartwheels around*. its a celebration of a lifetime. well, lets just say that she’s the horrifying room mate. everyone knows her as "the terror of kdu girls hostel". i will tell you why:

1. she STEALS
- she steals from people. what does she steals? ANYTHING! dish washing liquid, soap powder, money, makeup, food, milk, my EXPENSIVE BRANDED SAUSAGES (hem hem!), purses (yes people, she steals and try to frame me saying that i stole it) and who knows what else.
2. she LIES
- i caught her red handed stealing and she dares to say that my stuff (with my NAME on it) was her. i gave her a hell of her life time for trying to frame me. god knows how many times she got away by acting innocent and framing others but i cant stand it anymore. its either i kick her out of the hostel or i kill her. well…i dont mind flushing down her head into the toilet bowl just that im scared her hairy self will end up flooding the hostel’s toilets with hair.
- she’s malaysian mamak but she claims to be omanese and pakistani. and you know what? she claims she’s dr mahathir’s grand-daughter! haha! i almost died laughing when she told the hostel warden that.
3. she HATES HER PARENTS
- she blames her mum constantly for "giving birth to her dark skinned". and here’s her famous lines "i hate my mum for giving birth to me black becoz of i was fair, i would be the most beautiful girl in kdu." you know what? reality check, if you are the most beautiful girl in kdu, every girl in kdu are already miss universes. doesnt matter how many miss universes there will be. just to say that everyone (or almost everyone) is better looking than you. so stop stealing, stop lying and start getting your mind checked. hopefully, professionally.

dont blame me for being harsh. i m just reporting the truth. sigh…how i lived with her for the past one month was hell. i myself dont know what happened. i think i m cursed to get bad room mates/housemates. hopefully in this new semester, nobody takes my room. or rather someone horrible and just as bitchy as her doesnt.

during this 3 weeks holiday, i thought of taking up a new skill. perhaps knitting. i want to knit scafts, little baby shoes for newborns (they are so CUTE!) and perhaps sweaters once i get more "pro". i want to knit for all my closest friends (oh i miss you guys so much! sob sob sob. want to cry everytime i think of you guys being so apart from me.) i hope our friendship lasts forever! siew lee, ping sze, kar yee, see may, swee fuan, chi yeung, ken, ellie, wee leum, chong tat, andrew, wee kiat, tsang chiang, yin nin, yin ling and all of you guys out there, i love you guys so much! i miss you guys and one day, i hope all of us can come back and have a gathering in SP. *wipes off tears* our friendship lasted through thick and thin and i hope that all of you will be thinking of me as much as i think of you guys every day. MUAKS!

its a sunday morning and i m all awake in front of the pc spamming forums and using my new moderator powers to the max. bwhahahahahaha!(the evil evil laugh just in case some of you dont know) *yawns*

few things to do on a bright and sunny sunday morning:

- sing in the shower (Reminder: please keep tone down if you do not want unwanted interuption from your mum who is too embarassed to talk to the neighbour after listening to your "version" of "toxic" by britney spears)

- sleep in = unfortunately, my parents are rather strict about this rule. they would want me all up and awake, refreshed after a shower and looking every bit prim and proper before 9am. if not you are restricted from having breakfast or something. it aint happening anymore since i m rarely home but still, having being under their "guidance" for practically my whole life, it just has to come naturally.

- spam chatrooms, MSN messenger and forums. this is my ultimate favourite! since i m promoted to global moderator in www.ragnarokbattle.com, its really cool! since i love to play ragnarok battle offline myself(play this game people! its so much better than the online version!), i guess i do go to forums to check up on what other more knowledgable people have to say. and sad to say, on a sunday morning, most of my frens in msn messenger arent really "there" in front of the pc so you will basically type a msg and wait for say…an hour and still no reply. sigh. what is wrong with you people?!

anyway, most of you would rather be like me who will spam blogs on frenster or just use the internet without knowing which webpage to go next. mum calling me for lunch and i aint even hungry yet! chiao!

You know recently, there has been a lot of confusion inside me. I guess its mainly caused by my relationship with my ex bf. I loved him so so so so much! however, i do not know why there are constant misunderstanding between the both of us. i want to try to patch things up but by the way things are going, i m so confused!

perhaps i have only myself to blame for being such a bad gf. perhaps its coz of my constant hanging outs with guys that pisses him off. but i only hope that he can trust me. all those promises he made to me…broken just like that in front of me…scattered coz of my fault most likely i guess. sometimes i dont even know what to think. do i want to get back with him? the answer is yes. however i m so so so so worried. thats coz he doesnt really trust me. he seems to be constantly doubting me. i dont like that. this is becoz i trust him and i expect him to trust me too.

ok…this confusion is mainly staining my brain these few days. i cant really concentrate on anything much. presentations, assignments, etc. i dont know which is my priority.

anyway, back to my life:

presentations and assignments are already handed to us and great work is expected of us. i m confused…should lecturers actually know how to teach? hm…trick question? ok…let me tell you a story of my managerial accounting lecturer. lets just call him A for short.

Mr A is supposedly an "accomplished" accountant. hm…i have serious doubts in that. he always laugh at his own jokes even though they are not even the least funny. thts the thing! i dont know why he thinks so highly about himself. and he doesnt know a crap of what he is supposed to teach. he will just beat around the bush and go bak to square one and everyone wont understand a single thing he said. we have to make him waste time by explaining over and over again before a few of us get the slightest idea of what he is talking about and explain it to our poor blur frens. haha. we call him the "sampat" lecturer.

anyway i gotta go now. using nisha’s laptop! thanks nisha! much appreciated! chiao!

Okay…here’s the deal.

Final exams for the January-March semester just finished.

I am so going to screw my organizational behavior paper coz tht freaking lecturer of mine gave us the wrong tips! but i have backup so i m quite confident i will do ok compared to most people who left most of the questions unanswered. *preparing to molotov cocktail my lecturer’s car in the parking lot* he so have to be careful now! *evil grin on face as sinister evil tai ka jie quist pulls out soviet army knife and gets ready to drag lecturer into dark corner before demanding an A for tht subject*

*clears throat*

anyway, holiday…hm…right now i have a week break after my exam and before the start of a new term. someone PLEASE tell kdu college, penang of the definition of "holiday". wht freaking holiday is it when one still have to attend a "compulsary" lan moral class?! is it considered a "holiday" when one have to rush to take the bus over to penang since my paranoid but loving mum banned me from driving to penang in fear that i would bang down an innocent old lady crossing the road instead of killing myself? i will let you people answer that.

well people, we have to stand up to our rights as students! we have the right to get REAL holidays, not "holidays" using the definition of kdu penang. we deserve it! after all those hard work cracking out minds thinking bout brilliant strategies to "convince and persuade" the lecturer to give us much needed exam tips…no real holiday? this is a CRIME people! its against the law to deny us of our rights of a REAL break!

but wait a minute! wht am i ranting about now? i m stuck at home with a little bro to baby sit and a 56k internet line which loads a webpage in like 15 hours or something and my books are in penang. *mentally cursing self for not bringing back those books but i already have FIVE whole bags full of my stuff to lug home for the holidays* i m sorry, my dear comic books! i just…cant….*falls down onto ground as spotlight shines dramatically on me*

what am i to do during the holidays? hm…let me c….watching tv with my little bro(cartoon re-runs as usual)? playing computer games@ rbo offline with my little bro for the gigakazabillion-th time? get online to spam forums as usual? sigh….then what is the "true" meaning of holiday, people? i cant travel due to the evil schedule of having to attend ONE COMPULSARY CLASS during the HOLIDAYS and its enough to bring my mood down. there goes my complimentary rave party tickets featuring all the coolest deejay’s from all around the world for the recent f1 sepang….there goes my shopping time…*wait for me my white shoes!!!!!!! you are going to be mine when i get back to penang!!!!!*…the cheongsam’s in gurney plaza which i eyed since like a year ago is freaking cheap now! time to go shopping honey!

*pa…could i please borrow your credit card?*

music…hm…right now i m actually listening to jay chou(i know most of you dont like him but i dont know wht else to listen so just play anything will do) and i m listening to music which i dont understand a freaking word of whatever the singer is singing. sounds weird? yeah…i m proud to be a banana thought my mandarin is improving slightly as i m typing this blog!

anyway…cant wait for dear siew lee and ping sze to come back! all the best to kar yee who is going to take part in mssk soon! gambatte kudasai! love you gal! you better run your way to sukma or i will run after you! chi yeung and see may, take care of yourself in melbourne…go watch komenwel lar…haha…see malaysia kalah teruk lor…wht to do…swee fuan, you teach piano till forget all of us. so bad lar you!

love all of you people! muaks!

Addicted lyrics

Kelly Clarkson

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

Hello there people! Its been so damn long since i updated my blog so let me tell you a bit of myself currently k?

1. My "one-year-relationship" with my bf ended

- he dumped me because he claims to be under stress

- i dont want to talk bout it now coz it only brings tears to my eyes

- he refuses to even be frens with me

- he’s emotionally unstable and doesnt understand the fact that i need to study and do assignments

- i still love him dearly though its gradually fading at the moment due to the way he is treating me

2. PROM’S COMING!

- its going to be my first time

- i still couldnt decide on the dress yet! goodness! so many things to think of!

3. Exams and assignments are stressing me

- definitely, exams and assignments would stress someone up rite? i m glad its almost over now. my mid-term’s next week and the very fact that i m not that worried bout it is actually making me worried. hehe

4. I got chosen as a spokesperson for kdu college, penang

- actually, its more like i m representing my course which is diploma in business to be what they call a "spokesperson". i dont really know what i m supposed to do but they asked me to go for interviews, write essays and testimonials and basically take pictures for "god knows where" they will be posted

A LOVE SHOUT OUT TO ALL MY BELOVED FRIENDS! LOVE YOU!

MUAKS~